I'm writing this in a 3rd person's view.
sometimes Joy wonders if she had made the right career choice.
Hearing that phoebe (her dog) is not feeling well, she wishes she is home.
Realising that her mom is aging, she knows she should be home.
Concerned with what her sisters are going through, she needs to go home.
plus missing out all the happenings in her loved ones' lives, she gotta be home.
Joy had a chat with a dear friend who has relocated to HK recently. People admire this friend for her courage and yearn for similar opportunity. However, they don't see the other side of the picture as well; her fears and worries, her loneliness, and even pending issues with her husband. Joy shared this friend's sentiments. Yet she feels she's luckier, for she has God and no husband.
Honestly, we, as beings, are self centered. We like to fufill our needs first. The wife fufills her need to have a driven career so she relocates while the husband wants to fufill his need to have a domesticated wife so he objects. And that leads to arguments. Joy fufills her need for _____ so she travels. And you fufill your need to ______ so you _______.
Currently, there's a tussle. God's command is to serve the nations, so here Joy is, trying to serve. Then again, what about her loved ones in sg? she pondered. Although she thanked God that He's been protecting and blessing all of you, she also wonders if a physical presence will make a difference. For if all of you are in Delhi now, Joy will be a very happy girl.
I guess this tussle comes when priority changes. God is #1 (His rank does drop at times) and family has climbed up steadily to #2. Priority plays a major role in making decisions. Traveling for more than 2 weeks becomes a bane. Then frustration invades her peace when she can't have her fair share of pie which she thinks she deserves.
Nonethless, the answer to the starting line, she doesn't feel she had made a wrong choice, because she prayed, He answered and she moved. What had slipped her mind was telling Him max 24 months, of course seems like He has better plans after 13 months.
So ... ...
Conclusion #1: When anyone makes a major decision, consider one's priorities and how they might change after 2yrs.
Disclaimer: That doesn't mean that praying & following His plan is not crucial. IMO, this is still the most critical part of a decision.
Conclusion #2: Grass is greener on the other side but when you get to the other side, you'll realise that the grass is sprayed with green paint (Joy read this somewhere in www.crosswalk.com)
Conclusion #3: Joy is prepared to settle down, and be less of a traveler.
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Great sharing there, honest yet not whiney. Appreciate that cos it`s hard to reach that level.
Some thoughts from a fellow travler (yes, IMO a student is also a travler):
I thank God that I have the chance to be here in Japan, studying and pursuing what I want. Is this the right choice?
I know God commanded us to `Serve the nations`. Am I serving the Japanese here? Erm, i don`t think so. Although I said that `I could go to Japan to serve the people there`, I know deep down, it was more of my `earthly` desire to come to Japan to study.
I never know, maybe I was not meant to be here, maybe there are more than music that I am to learn here... I will never be sure.
What I do know for sure is that, some of my most intimate encounters with God occured here in Japan. And I got more than what I asked for.
I also learnt to appreciate what I have in Singapore, my family, my friends, my church.
1Cor2:9
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard,and no mind has imagined
what God has prepared for those who love him."
God will carry you through this season and you will look back with thanksgiving and remember what you prayed for before you went travelling?
I always said `Be careful what you prayed for cos God will really give it to you! :)`
I know, cause He gave me WISDOM. Not wrapped up nicely in a present, but by putting me through some yucky situations that made me wonder and whine.
Perhaps, this long route, is what we need, as humans, to obtain wisdom and see God`s big picture.
Bless you with my 2nd favourite Scripture verse:
Eph3:20-21
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."
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